H.O.P.E.

Hey There Hope.

i'm not sure if taiki or jason will show you this but i will write it anyway!

i know we dont talk much and i know i dont know you that well

but from what i hear, 

you are beautiful and amazing and just wonderful inside and out

what ever you are going through right now, 

i know you are a strong young lady and that you can do anything you put your mind to.

dont be afraid to get hurt sweetie

we all do

but we just have to learn from it.

and lean on each other for help.

i know family isnt exactly family any more now a day:/

but you know your parents are really trying to make it

just give them time and a chance okay?

they have issues and lives of their own you know?

not all families can be happy all the time

i know mine isnt but we try to make time for each other

and yes sweetie

in my family we fight about stupid things to.

im not going to lie.

just the other day 3 of the kids were like 

GAH! BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH MINE!
and yes sweetie
we even make each other upset
we make each other feel bad and cry
we forget that we are a family sometimes
and yea
we sometimes argue to the point where we want to run away

but we make up, forgive, and move on.

just dont forget that we all love you bunches :)

i know your mommy and daddy love you so much sweetie thats a fact

just hang in there okay?

if you ever need anything you can talk to one of your uncles or even me!

*smiles*

i know we dont exactly talk and you want to keep distance from me

but i am here for you when ever you need me

all of us are.

im not aiming to replace your mommy

your cousins are not aiming to replace your siblings 

and your uncles is not aiming to replace your daddy

but ALL of us just wanted to say 

we love you :)

and to feel better

and that you are welcome to come join the girls team any family night

to help beat those silly boy :P

Love!

The Crazy Family  :D

PEACE. LOVE. HAPPINESS. FAMILY!

TAIKI :)

okay well my son can just be so cute some times XD

i love the boy

he was like 

"you know.... we havent done anything as a family lately... sooooooo lets go out and play"

isnt he the most caring kid in the world?

gosh :) pat on the back for raising my children right hehe

but it was really cute and a lot of fun

families do things together.

yea we fight and blah blah blah

but you know what?

you just have to stop and enjoy the time you have together.

it seems like no one hangs out with their family any more :/

that makes me very upset.

they never sit and just enjoy each others company.

someone is always left out.

lets stop this madness once and for all!

lets change this world (:

lets love each other until the end of time

FAMILIES STICK TOGETHER

PEACE. LOVE. HAPPINESS. FAMILY.

i wonder...

i wonder if

......

i wonder if she knows that the man that loves her is practically going through hell and back to make her happy. 

i wonder if she knows that her little girl is in the hospital right at this very this moment.

i wonder if she knows that her friend demater just wants someone to talk to.

i wonder is she knows that her friend lucas is so broken on the inside and all he needs is a hug.

i wonder is she knows that her oldest brother just wants to be able to say sorry for everything.

i wonder if she knows that i am really sorry from the bottom of my heart. 

i wonder if she knows that you cant hate forever.

i wonder if she knows that this is the time of year to be joyful and happy and to forgive others and love more then you can ever love.

i wonder if she knows that i still want to be her friend. 

i wonder if she knows that deep down inside i miss her so much.

i wonder if she knows that i am being completely honest.

i wonder if she understands that her anger and hate is going to get her no where. 

i wonder is she knows that she is only hurting herself.

i wonder if she knows that i will always be here for her.

i wonder if she knows that i will always stop and listen.
i wonder if she knows that i will always have time for her.
i wonder if she knows that i still wish she was my one and only best friend.

i wonder if she can ever forgive me.

i wonder if she can ever forgive them.

i wonder if we will ever be friends again.

i wonder if she can ever let it go.

I WONDER.

WHOA O_O

its been forever guys.... sorry :/ i've been really busy man

there really isnt much to talk about

my "bestfriend the mistake" refuses to talk to me because of his girlfriend

i can tell he is hurting. i just know he is. his brothers are so worried about him

but he just brushes us off and tells us to leave him alone

you know that feeling

where you know you can help the person...

but they wont let you?

sigh you know what i learn this past year and a half?
i learned that in life
now matter how hard you try to help someone...
they will always refuse to listen and change for the better.
its sad but its life
you cant change someone. 
that have to change themselves.
but me being hardheaded and one to not give up...
well im just going to keep doing what im doing.


on a lighter note :D 
my best buddy has a baby on the way
he is so excited too.
he has also been worried :/
but i know he will make a great dad(:


my buddy squgigglely line is just living life.
i told him not to be so hostile to his brother and his girlfriend
but anger and torment is squgigglely  line's nature
but dont get me wrong okay?
he is very caring and if you need him he will be there for you(:
he some how finds a way to cheer up people in the family.... its kind of weird
he is misanthropic but at the same time caring?
what a silly person (:


then there is triple e
being all triple eish
reading and having his nose stuck in a book -_-"
he needs a life.
seriously.... but we still love him <3 


you know what?
im going to call for a family day!
everyone in this family needs to spend more time together.
its a bit too cold for the beach.... so maybe just a bonfire?
(: yes that would be nice actually. 
gosh i havent even met all of triple e's kids yet....
man im a bad aunt T_T
im sorry guys!
i will make sure to get to know you all by the end of this year!
that is my goal :D 


okay welllllllll 
nothing much else to say?
enjoy the music
i love you guys....
more then you can ever imagine


PEACE. LOVE. HAPPINESS.