drowning

tears... 
we all have them. 
we all drown in them...

life...
we all live it. 
we all see it flash before out eyes. 

friends...
we all have them. 
we all lose them...

today... 
i learned that i need to work. 
i learned that i need to step up to the plate...

... but 

havent i been doing that?... 
maybe its not enough...
but you know what?

i will try.
i will try harder then before.
i wont fail you. 
i wont leave you.
i know... i know i cant always be there. 
i know i dont know much about you anymore.


you know i care. 
you know i care so much. 
i never ment to hurt you...
i never ment for us to become like this. 


i am sorry...
i am sorry for all the pain. 
i am sorry for all the suffering. 
i am sorry for all the yelling. 
i am sorry for hurting you. 
...
i am so sorry for drifting away.
i am sorry for becoming like this... i am sorry for everything...



...but.

sorry is just a word isnt it... 
i have to show you how much i care...
i have to show you that i am trying...
i have to show you that i am sorry...

and i will
i promise...
i will make it up to you. 
one day