inspiration? put it in a song (:

OKAY!

Wrote a song I was kind of inspired by my friend and myself (: 

I've been there before and I know how hard it is. 

It's so easy to find yourself in that place and I know how difficult it is.

But you just have to keep your head up and have faith that he will provide. 

I know what it's like to not like who you are and I know how it feels to looks in the mirror and just stare at yourself asking "why". 

I know what its like to feel like he isn't there. 

I know what it is like to be impatient and frustrated. God had plans for your future. He will help you prosper and never forsake you.
So enough talking! 

I'm just going to write the song on here

then sing it when I have time later. 

<3 hope this inspires you
Forgiven?
By Samantha Choy
Standing there, looking so scared
Who is that person staring at me?
Lost in the darkness
Drowning in sin
How could I ever be forgiven?

Stepping away, cower in shame
To weak to even call out your name
All of the pain trials and games
It feels like I'm going insane

God where are you now?
I'm screaming out loud
I want you stand right here with me
Show me your mercy and show me your grace
Lord please hold me in your warm embrace

Standing there looking so scared
Who is that person staring at me?
Lost in the darkness
Drowning in sin
How could I ever be forgiven?

Taking the next step and falling down
Sitting in hatred on the ground
Anger frustration all boiling up
Lord when will I ever have enough?

How could it be?
Is this really me?
Human and lusting for more then I need
Now I'm staring right back at my sins
Hoping I will ever be forgiven

You're all that i want and all that I need
Lord Please use me as your seed
Planted by grace
Growing my faith
Lord I'm looking right into your face

Standing there, looking so scared
Who is that person staring at me?
Lost in the darkness
Drowning in sin
How could I ever be forgiven?

UH-MAZING TIME (: and more to come?

okay well!

i got back from retreat on saturday!

i. had. a. BLAST!

the first day wasa little.... awkward... didnt really know many people :/

BUT none the less (: i met a bunch of people are we were able to connect on so many levels

this retreat truely showed me that i really should give it ALL to god.

in good and bad

in sorrow and joy

in sunshine and storms.

give it to the lord and he will be forgiving and understanding

this retreat really helped me grow in my faith and i am sooooo thankful to

ENOCH WONG!

for inviting me (:

God bless all of them

they are my sisters and brothers in christ and we were able to not only have fun and been teenagers but we were also able to praise god and give him all the glory and honor he deserves

and not only did i meet NEW people!

i got to actually got to know people (that i previously new before) more!

it was fun just having one on one time with god and 

having conversations with people and just being able to relate and talk.

Its hard for asian americans to connect with 

"american society" because we are practically in a different enviroment in our homes. 

*cough* UCLA GIRL *cough*

but there is not point in hating on her

why? because that just causes a circle of hate

if she is ignorant then she is ignorant and i do hope one day she changes that. 

okay. so i think i might like some one >.<

lol i know. sammy like some one? NEVER!

he is just so... inspirational (: 

sings. dances. loves the lord. easy going. 

understanding. patient. kind. open hearted. open minded.

oh and did i mention that he is smart. funny.

sigh. well lets just let god handle this huh?

im tired of guys being bleh and me being the one working trying to keep things together.

so if god want it then he wants it

what happens, happens. 

ANYWAY!!! lol

i dont know if i have said this before but!

i got my new glasses :)

this was a while ago and my b for not telling you all lol

and my friend bugged me to go a song cover :/

so i sang lean on me 

not going to post it on here but its on my facebook(: 

went to the movies yesterday (monday) 

with my friends daneshia and sara :P

BE JEALOUS!

watched

beastly

paul

battle LA (or whatever)

all amazingly fantastic movies!

but it rained all day yesterday ):

soooooo

guess who ran and danced and sang in the rain :D

I DIIIIIIIIID

cause im a crazy person.
DONT JUDGE MEEEEEEEH!

but we all had a bunch of fun and we crazy and yea....

had weird conversations @_@ 

*awkward silence*

......

yea

but beastly was A.D.O.R.A.B.L.E

paul almost made me pee mah pants laughing :)

and battle la was a totaly emotion mess!

it was like BOOM BANG BOOM 

noooooooo dying people!

HOLY ASJFHDALJKFH! ALIENS!

and then it was like TAKE THAT POOP BUTTS! lol

dlkjhfgsldkjfhglkjhdfb9v8eanp!!!!

so lets see

man i wrote a lot @_@

weeeeelllllll...

i dont really know what else to tell ya'll

but 

SPRING BREAK BABE!

WHOOT WHOOT!

RAWR~ Goes The Dinosaur :D

SO!

ONE MORE DAY 

TILL SPRING BREAK!!!!!

>.< I CANT WAIT!

Thursday: 

School

Pack

Leave for Retreat :)

no phone for 3 days lol

Friday:

Activities

Fun

Fellowship <3

Saturday:

Worship :)

Pack up

Come home

SLEEP!

Sunday:

Church.

Homework?

Lay around :P

Monday:

Movies with friends:

Daneasha 

Her boyfriend 

Sara

and maybe steven :)

The rest of spring break is a mystery for me :)

PEACE.LOVE.HAPPINESS.

GROWING UP TIME :)

Hello bright future goodbye dark past. 

If this is what it takes, then so be it.

I'm tired of people.

Honestly.

Its time to just grow the hell up.

High school is just a huge mixing bowl of teenage hormones.

I'm tired of everyone's bullshit.

So you know what?

From today onward.

I promise MYSELF

that I wont take anything personally

I wont care what you think

 Everyone has a right to their own opinion 

and so thats completly fine

Believe what you want

say what you want

but in the end i am still living and you are as well

if you can't live up to your words then don't say them at all.

I'm happy.

You're happy.

She is happy.

He is happy.

WE ARE ALL HAPPY!

so don't be a douche and ruin it :)

live and let live

and i say

Just leave me the 

HELL ALONE

and the world will go round and round :) 

Fuck with my family?

i PROMISE i will

Make your life a living hell :)