CHRISTMAS! :D

I GOT AN IPHONE 4

YAY!!
:) im happy.

well the kids had a bunch of fun too :)

yea... tanaka might have been a little upset about jason

but everything went amazing

all the kids are just so excited and hyper and crazy XD

i love you guys!

you guys are just the cutest little angels every <3

So nick's parents are there too:)

his mom is so nice!

i got to talk to her and she is just adorable

his dad is... ehhhhhh

it took a while for him to get talking but when we did start

it was kinda fun

he has a lot to say you just have to listen.

yea he is a bit mean... but he can be nice

it just takes a little more effort

sigh.

nick's kids are...

having a hard time enjoy christmas

poor kids :/

im trying to tell them its all right and what not

but they are kinda in a down mood right now

i mean this morning they were bouncing off the walls...

but then their older brother jason got usept

and now they are just...

there....

sigh its christmas people

its our first christmas as a family

come on!

sigh i dont know what to do anymore

people say im "acting nice" but really...

i am nice...

i am just trying to help

i didnt mean to get anyone upset.

i know you hate me i get it okay?

but...

dont ruin christmas for little kids

..........

all i can really say is

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S

and i hope everything works out

On My Way :)

Tell everybody I'm on my way

New friends and new places to see

With blue skies ahead yes

I'm on my way

And there's nowhere else

that I'd rather be

Tell everybody I'm on my way

And I'm loving every step I take

With the sun beating down yes

I'm on my way

And I can't keep this smile off my face

'Cause there's nothing like seeing

each other again

No matter what the distance between

And the stories that we tell

will make you smile

Oh it really lifts my heart

So tell 'em all I'm on my way

New friends and new places to see

And to sleep under the stars

Who could ask for more

With the moon keeping watch over me

Not the snow, not the rain

Can change my mind

The sun will come out, wait and see

And the feeling of the wind in your face

Can lift your heart

Oh there's nowhere I would rather be

'Cause I'm on my way now-

well and truly

I'm on my way now

(I'm on my way now)

REPEAT

Tell everybody I'm on my way

And I just can't wait to be there

With blue skies ahead yes

I'm on my way

And nothing but good times to share

So tell everybody I'm on my way

And I just can't wait to be home

With the sun beating down yes

I'm on my way

And nothing but good times to show

I'm on my way

Yes, I'm on my way 

Guilty as Charged XD

Yeah


You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way


But we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart
When you say
That I want it that way


Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way


Am I your fire
Your one desire
Yes I know it's too late
But I want it that way


Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way


Now I can see that we're falling apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah
No matter the distance
I want you to know
That deep down inside of me...


You are my fire
The one desire
You are
You are, you are, you are


Don't wanna hear you say
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
(Don't wanna hear you say)
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way


Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
(Don't wanna hear you say it)
I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache

Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say

I want it that way 

Cause I want it that way

Welcome to Our Brotherly Time

Everyone's invited, this is how we live
We're all here for each other
happy to give
All we have we share
And all of us we care, so come on...

Welcome to our family time
Welcome to our brotherly time
We're happy giving and taking
to the friends we're making
There's nothing we won't do

Welcome to our family time (Welcome into the family)
Welcome to our happy to be time  (We're so happy)
This is our festival
you know and best of all (And best of all)
We're here to share it all

There's a bond between us
nobody can explain
It's a celebration of life
and seeing friends again
I'd be there for you
I know you'd be there for me too...
So come on

Welcome to our family time (Welcome to our family)
Welcome to our brotherly time (We're so happy)
This is our festival
you know and best of all (And best of all)
We're here to share it all

Remembering loved ones departed
Someone dear to your heart
Finding love, and planning a future
Telling stories and laughing with friends
Precious moments you'll never forget

This has to be the most beautiful
The most peaceful place
I've ever been to
It's nothing like I've ever seen before
When I think of how far I've come
I can't believe it...and yet I see it
In them I see family
I see the way we used to be

Come on...

Welcome to our family time (Welcome into the family)
Welcome to our brotherly time (We're so happy)
We're happy giving and taking
to the friends we're making (So happy to be)
There's nothing we won't do

Welcome to our family time (Welcome into the family)
Welcome to our happy to be time (We're so happy)
This is our festival
You know and best of all
We're here to share it all

oh my. oh my.

new family members :) yay! 

oh they are just adorable 

i cant wait to actually get them involved with the family!

gosh everyone is so happy!

aww :)

but im a little upset :(

my little taiki still refuses to come home

sigh what a party pooper

but its okay

he just needs to blow off stress i understand :)

WE LOVE YOU TAIKI!

____________________________________________________

i'm happy everyone is getting along :)

and tomorrow i am going to go apologize to my friend

yea we have problems but im tired of this drama

its pointless

 

why does she hate me so much?

if apologizing will make things better then so be it

i am tired of our kids fighting because of us :/

its not fair to them or the others

i guess one of us just has to grow up and make the first move

sigh i just really do hope she gives me the chance to talk

all i want to do is say what i have to say without her getting mad at me

she tends to get mad before i even finish

but this time im going to make sure i finish before anything else can happen.

i do hope she forgives me too

sigh i really do.

i know we wont really be as close as we used to

and yea i get that its going to take time

and i also get that we both changed and it sucks

but i do hope that we can be friends

i miss her even if i hate to admit it :/

i miss everything we used to share.

i just miss our friendship

and its been eating at me sigh

yea my bros have been on me about it every day :/

dont you miss blah blah blah

dont you remember blah blah blah

dont you want to have her as a friend again?

dont you want to at least try to apologize?

well you guys.

my answer to you is

YES

i do miss her

i do remember all the things we shared

i do want to have her as a friend again

i do want to apologize!

but does she?

will she accept me?

will she listen to what i have to say?

will she forgive me?

does she miss me?

we are just both hard headed people

all i want is a second chance.

i know thats asking a lot

but i hope she sees that i really mean it.

sincerely,
The Apologetic Teen

King of Anything? I think NOT :D

Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)

Keep drinkin' coffee
Stare me down across the table
While I look outside

So many things I'd say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet
And count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em
But I never asked

So let me thank you for time
And try to not waste any more of mine
Get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe
But I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree

(no one sweetie)
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent
You swear you know best

But you expect me to
Jump up on board with you
Ride off into your dellusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost
With no direction oh
But you won't ever see

You're so busy makin' maps
With my name on them in all caps
You got the talkin' down just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

All my life
I've tried
To make everybody happy while I
Just hurt
And hide
Waitin' for someone to tell me it's my turn
To decide

Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)

Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

Let me hold your crown, babe
Oh oh
Ah

randomness :)

All the mistakes in the world couldn't measure up to the day i thought i could trust you. 

Just before you never speak to me again 

remember when you used to be my friend. 

You treated me like shit. 

I’m never gonna deny it and I even played your little game. 

I was there every time you called my name. 

I still thought our friendship would last but now everything is in the past. 

All the secrets I shared and you never even cared, 

so let me tell you and don’t make me repeat it: 

I fucking hate you and yes, I mean it.

Some people don't deserve the memories you share with them.

Take out the picture. Blow off the dust. 

Take off the frame; it’s starting to rust. 

Remember the times we had together. 

What ever happened to best friends forever?

You can't laugh last If I stab you in the throat with...

the knife you left in my back.

Its funny how you can be hurt so bad
from the person you least expected it from.

The people who hurt me the most

were the people who swore

they never would. 

Trust takes years to build

and only seconds to shatter.  

What goes around comes around.
That's what people say.
so To my friend...for all the pain you caused me
will come back to you someday. 

Backstabbers OOZE anger.

Life would be so much easier if we didn't have to deal with men and women who make promises they have no intention of keeping.

I hate two faced people. It's hard to decide which face to slap first.  

sweetie, if your going to be two-faced, at least make one of them pretty. 

Before you open your mouth...
Make Sure - You have a mind to back up all the things you say.   

H.O.P.E.

Hey There Hope.

i'm not sure if taiki or jason will show you this but i will write it anyway!

i know we dont talk much and i know i dont know you that well

but from what i hear, 

you are beautiful and amazing and just wonderful inside and out

what ever you are going through right now, 

i know you are a strong young lady and that you can do anything you put your mind to.

dont be afraid to get hurt sweetie

we all do

but we just have to learn from it.

and lean on each other for help.

i know family isnt exactly family any more now a day:/

but you know your parents are really trying to make it

just give them time and a chance okay?

they have issues and lives of their own you know?

not all families can be happy all the time

i know mine isnt but we try to make time for each other

and yes sweetie

in my family we fight about stupid things to.

im not going to lie.

just the other day 3 of the kids were like 

GAH! BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH MINE!
and yes sweetie
we even make each other upset
we make each other feel bad and cry
we forget that we are a family sometimes
and yea
we sometimes argue to the point where we want to run away

but we make up, forgive, and move on.

just dont forget that we all love you bunches :)

i know your mommy and daddy love you so much sweetie thats a fact

just hang in there okay?

if you ever need anything you can talk to one of your uncles or even me!

*smiles*

i know we dont exactly talk and you want to keep distance from me

but i am here for you when ever you need me

all of us are.

im not aiming to replace your mommy

your cousins are not aiming to replace your siblings 

and your uncles is not aiming to replace your daddy

but ALL of us just wanted to say 

we love you :)

and to feel better

and that you are welcome to come join the girls team any family night

to help beat those silly boy :P

Love!

The Crazy Family  :D

PEACE. LOVE. HAPPINESS. FAMILY!

TAIKI :)

okay well my son can just be so cute some times XD

i love the boy

he was like 

"you know.... we havent done anything as a family lately... sooooooo lets go out and play"

isnt he the most caring kid in the world?

gosh :) pat on the back for raising my children right hehe

but it was really cute and a lot of fun

families do things together.

yea we fight and blah blah blah

but you know what?

you just have to stop and enjoy the time you have together.

it seems like no one hangs out with their family any more :/

that makes me very upset.

they never sit and just enjoy each others company.

someone is always left out.

lets stop this madness once and for all!

lets change this world (:

lets love each other until the end of time

FAMILIES STICK TOGETHER

PEACE. LOVE. HAPPINESS. FAMILY.

i wonder...

i wonder if

......

i wonder if she knows that the man that loves her is practically going through hell and back to make her happy. 

i wonder if she knows that her little girl is in the hospital right at this very this moment.

i wonder if she knows that her friend demater just wants someone to talk to.

i wonder is she knows that her friend lucas is so broken on the inside and all he needs is a hug.

i wonder is she knows that her oldest brother just wants to be able to say sorry for everything.

i wonder if she knows that i am really sorry from the bottom of my heart. 

i wonder if she knows that you cant hate forever.

i wonder if she knows that this is the time of year to be joyful and happy and to forgive others and love more then you can ever love.

i wonder if she knows that i still want to be her friend. 

i wonder if she knows that deep down inside i miss her so much.

i wonder if she knows that i am being completely honest.

i wonder if she understands that her anger and hate is going to get her no where. 

i wonder is she knows that she is only hurting herself.

i wonder if she knows that i will always be here for her.

i wonder if she knows that i will always stop and listen.
i wonder if she knows that i will always have time for her.
i wonder if she knows that i still wish she was my one and only best friend.

i wonder if she can ever forgive me.

i wonder if she can ever forgive them.

i wonder if we will ever be friends again.

i wonder if she can ever let it go.

I WONDER.

WHOA O_O

its been forever guys.... sorry :/ i've been really busy man

there really isnt much to talk about

my "bestfriend the mistake" refuses to talk to me because of his girlfriend

i can tell he is hurting. i just know he is. his brothers are so worried about him

but he just brushes us off and tells us to leave him alone

you know that feeling

where you know you can help the person...

but they wont let you?

sigh you know what i learn this past year and a half?
i learned that in life
now matter how hard you try to help someone...
they will always refuse to listen and change for the better.
its sad but its life
you cant change someone. 
that have to change themselves.
but me being hardheaded and one to not give up...
well im just going to keep doing what im doing.


on a lighter note :D 
my best buddy has a baby on the way
he is so excited too.
he has also been worried :/
but i know he will make a great dad(:


my buddy squgigglely line is just living life.
i told him not to be so hostile to his brother and his girlfriend
but anger and torment is squgigglely  line's nature
but dont get me wrong okay?
he is very caring and if you need him he will be there for you(:
he some how finds a way to cheer up people in the family.... its kind of weird
he is misanthropic but at the same time caring?
what a silly person (:


then there is triple e
being all triple eish
reading and having his nose stuck in a book -_-"
he needs a life.
seriously.... but we still love him <3 


you know what?
im going to call for a family day!
everyone in this family needs to spend more time together.
its a bit too cold for the beach.... so maybe just a bonfire?
(: yes that would be nice actually. 
gosh i havent even met all of triple e's kids yet....
man im a bad aunt T_T
im sorry guys!
i will make sure to get to know you all by the end of this year!
that is my goal :D 


okay welllllllll 
nothing much else to say?
enjoy the music
i love you guys....
more then you can ever imagine


PEACE. LOVE. HAPPINESS.