WAPOW(:

ello world(:
well i am back from retreat and man did i have fun!
the first day was kinda.... eh you know? cause i didnt really know people. but my TEAM was really nice and welcoming hehe "The Unburied Life" we worked so hard together and suffered and rejoyced together. how i love fellow ship(:
any way :P

first day. 
got there. played ice breaking games (musical chairs, elimination) then we got into our groups and presented our names. then DINER. then our session and talked in small groups. 
OK. so let me just tell you. the first day was so fun and i met so many new people and had such a great time. my small group was so easy to talk to also. SISTERS IN CHRIST(:

then my room mates Soo Ha and Jinju we just the best man. sooha was so funny and it was so easy to be open with her you know? she is like a big sister(: i love her and her weirdness "hey! you guys! smell my socks XD"


second day. 
sooo. woke up. ate CEREAL! session, small groups(:, team meeting. LUNCH WITH MY YOUNGER BUDDIES :P, then we have some pretty competitive and epic games haha. team meeting. lol "FIGHteam"  ummmmmm.. then dinner. and did our skits(: then another session. small groups and snacks. 


oh my gosh. during the night session i just cried like crazy. the tears just wouldnt stop. Pastor was telling us about how God is our great heavenly father and that he loves us more then we can ever know. He talked about how if our family was just falling apart we could always turn to God and fall into his open arms and he will always love us and he will always be a father to us no matter what. 

then Pastor stood up and held his arms open and told us to just come one at a time during worship and he just wanted to give us a hug from God and he told us that God just wanted to hug us and make up for all our parents. That just got to me you know? because like RIGHT before the retreat my mom and i got into a huge fight and i just... i hurt to much you know? and when he said that it just really pulled at my heart and at first i was really hesitant about going up. but then this song started playing and i just couldnt hold back any more. so i get in line and i just couldnt wait another second to get up there and just fall in his arms. i literally started crying while in line because i just couldnt hold back any more


i got up there. and i just fell into his arms and started crying like there was no tomorrow. i was shaking so hard and i just lost track of what was going on. i could feel God just embracing me and pastor said some things that really just helped me. God works in such different ways. and pastor just KNEW what to say to me you know? I would write about what he prayed over me. but its like... my prayer you know? and yea. so then after he prayed over me, i just could stop crying. so then one of the pastor's wifes just embraced me and let me cry to my hearts content and just allowed me to share some things and she prayed over me and stayed with me until i calmed down a little. i mean i was still crying but it was still just... really good. i felt like i was so loved by God you know? it confermed to me that God really did love me and his love was everlasting. that he loves me for WHO i am. not WHAT i am. he loves my inward appearence rather then my outward appearence.  That night was just so moving. it has truely changed me you know? 


third day. 
wake up. eat. session. small groups(:, seminar, lunch with ruby (or ddong) XD, then pilgrims progress >.<, Free time (aka NAP time), Dinner, Session, Small groups, snacks. 


hmmm so lets see here. 
Pilgrims progress >.< oh. my. lordy! i was going to DIE! but it taught us a lot of lessons. see they give you these 5 tasks to complete with your team. and you have to work as a team. but here is the catch, you cant drink ANY water during the time the games start. (number ONE rule- dont drink ANY water on the events) so all of these games were so physical. 

Our first task was to shoot a basket and everytime we missed our WHOLE team would have to run a lap.  (we ran about 36 laps). our team leader Kenny. he was the most supportive of us all. this little kid was so tired of running and we still have 5 laps till the next person and kenny with out complaining just told the kid to climb on his back and he ran with that kid on his back for most of the time in the hot sun. 
and the lesson we learned is that together we suffer as a team and that in christianity if one person in the body suffers then we all share their suffering. 

Our second task was to move one person from one side OVER a string hanging about 5 1/2 feet  to the other side. and one of our memebers fell and twisted his ankle and he just insisted to keep going even though we kept telling him to just go sit down and relax. 
and from this we learned to carry each others burdens and that we have to help each other in times of need when they just need help being lifted up again. 


Our 3 task has many parts to it. 
First we had to run laps back and forth over this huge feild TOGETHER as a group (start together - finish together) and it was so tiring after we just ran 36 laps so we really needed to make sure everyone was staying together. and AGAIN kenny was carrying kids on his back running for them. he took their burden and helped them with it. and so when we were done we had to learn that a church ran together. that we do things as one. so if one person doesnt finish we all dont. some where along those lines. THEN after that he gave us all water and told us we could drink. and what did we do? we drank. >.< we completely forgot about the rule because we were so tired. and the lesson we learn from that is that we have to help each other not fall into tempation. 


Our 4 task we had to DUCK WALK! hehe(: if you dont know what that is then look it up :P
we did it differently (we held our ears too) so anyway. that was easy for me. i used to walk like that all the time when i was younger and i have good balance. most of our team was okay on it but some of the younger kids were having trouble you know? so everytime someone fell we had to start over. we only had to start over once so thats good(: everytime people would look like they were falling over we would put out our arms and help them regain their balance. hehe team work. 
the lesson here was, if some one falls away from chirst or away from the church then its okay that they can always start over. and they should have to start over alone. that we should be there to go on the path with them and help them get back to christ. so we go on the path of christ together. 

then the fifth task >.<
we had to carry this picnic table out to this field and then we had to stand in a circle and hold our arms out at shoulder level for 5 minutes with out putting them down. everyone's arms were about to FALL off. you know? but then we learn home Jesus had to stay on the cross for DAYS and that our pain was nothing to the pain he felt.

OKAY(:

Forth day. 
rise and shine(: breakfast, session, small groups, annoucing winners, lunch(: hehe (philly cheese steaks) then pack and clean. 


>.< oh goodness. so when we left we were driving on the road for about 30-45 minutes right? then our bus ran out of battery. we sat there for about 30-45 minutes waiting for the guy to figure out what was wrong right? and it was SO hot in the bus >.< but its okay(: we got to talk and spend time together and sing random songs lol. then umm he finally called for another bus. so we had to wait for an hour to get there so moer bonding time! yay(: sooo umm when the bus got there we were like YAY!!!!! and yea. so anyway. we were talking on the bus and Soo was like "hey girls, wanna go for dinner? ill take you out" and i was like "sure(:" and so it was Me, Jinju, Joyce, Min, and Soo that went out for dinner. and in the car soo was like ".... im almost out of gas... and i didnt bring anymoney!" and we were like "WHAT!" lol but its okay. we stopped for gas lol $5 worth of gas. then we went to BENTO! their Mount Fuji Roll and Flying Dragon roll were so good(: we all shared sushi and min and soo got bento boxes. it was so fun and we got boba tea(: yummy its been forever since we got that lol. so anyway. the bill came right? and it ended up to be 83.22 . and we all tried to pitch in. but i ended up paying the most lol. but thats not a problem you know? it was just nice to hang out. and Soo was like "NO! i am going to pay you back! i will!" and i was like "okay okay." so then we drove home and i took a shower and my arms were aching like crazy. but then i was here typing this and i was really tired and i just finished task 3 and i was like ".... i'll finish it tomorrow" so i like hit the bed, prayed, and just passed out! so here i am in the morning did my morning devotion and now finishing this(:

As i have said before, this retreat was SO good. 

in so many ways. 

good for the soul.

good for our selfesteem

good for friendships

good for our relationship with God. 

I really had so much fun. Everyone was so nice and the Pastors really cared you know? 

Everyone was so surprised that i wasnt Korean lol XD it was funny though. 

but yea. it was fum. got to hang out with my best friend and my sister and shared tears and laughs together. 

lol we girl were soooooo weird at night man. we were total guys if not MORE then guys at night man. burping and what not. 

i think i will ask jinju to join me on my church retreat this year(:

I CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT RETREAT!

it. was.

A M A Z I N G (: